[What's Wrong With Me?]
Don't answer that.
Well, it's been 2 whole days since I last posted, so I decided to post some since I don't have a whole lot else to do tonight.
A guy at work told me tonight that I need to get a girlfriend. I wish it were that easy for me. Fuck, I can't even talk to most girls out there, let alone ask one out.
Fuck, man.
Talking to people makes me feel even worse sometimes. I've been talking to some of the girls I know about stuff that's been going on in our lives. I talked to one of my friends one night until early in the morning because she's been having a hard time with her ex, and I was up all night with her one time just talking. There's a lot of stuff that we talk about and I really wish I could help her more than I can.
On another note, I've been talking to one of my close friends a lot and I can't think about anything but her sometimes. Why? On top of all the other shit in my life, I'm probably going to screw up one of the best relationships I've ever had by going crazy over a girl. Go me.
On a lighter note, Pat is going to St. Paul's this summer to study Artificial Intelligence. I asked if that is just because he went there last year, or if it's another program altogether. If I can, I want to go next year. I was so bummed out because the didn't invite me for this year, and every time I talk to Steph or Pat they make me feel even worse because they both went last year. Hope I can go, though. That would kick some major portions of ass.

[A day of many feats]
Today was second block final, but I didn't have one so I just hung out at home until the review for third block. After that I came home and cleaned out my car because it needed to be done.
Went to the movies with Steph and afterwards we went to the mall and I got some snazzy new swag. Got two shirts and a pair of shorts at Old Navy and then went to Electronics Boutique where I got Harvest Moon for GBA and then to Hot Topic where I got a John Deere shirt and a new watch. I was just about out of money at that point so we just headed over to Steph's so she could show me all her neat stuff. At about 8 we went to Pat's to go swimming and then we got cold so we went inside and I got ignored for a couple hours. Big suprise there.
I'm cool with it, though, happens all the time. Just about everywhere I go with more than one other person, I get left out. I guess I can't do much about it. I think it's in other people's nature to just ignore me unless they want something.
So I'm sitting here trying to think of something to do, and I realized that I haven't updated my blog in a while, and since today was sooooo amusing I figured I'd dump some of my shit thoughts in here.
I wrote a song too. Yay. It's called The Sun Goes Down. Enjoy the First Draft.

I'm so sick of pretending
That I'm not what I am
Tired of feeling
Nothing like I truely am
The world thinks im not who I really am
Free, light, not distant from all we are

And it all falls apart
After he sun goes down
I lose myself
When the sun goes down
I can't keep control
And in the end, the sun goes down

When im out there
I look like anyone else
Happy, normal, independent
But when I'm not in the open
The real me comes out

And it all falls apart
After he sun goes down
I lose myself
When the sun goes down
I can't keep control
And in the end, the sun goes down

The sun goes down
On me, on you, on everything we know
I get lost in the darkness
No one to help me get out
Of this prison I am locked up in

And it all falls apart
After he sun goes down
I lose myself
When the sun goes down
I can't keep control
And in the end, the sun goes down

And it all falls apart
After he sun goes down
I lose myself
When the sun goes down
I can't keep control
And in the end, the sun goes down

(The Sun goes down...)

[What is this?]
I don't know what it is, but I'm more open with one person I've known for less than three months than I am with people I have known for my whole life. Why?