[Collie]
I don't like this feeling. One I get sometimes, where I feel like I'm alone. Sure, I've got friends, I guess. People I can talk and relate to. People that I like to spend time with. But I can't feel like I belong anywhere. I've always got this feeling of being out of place, like something is fractured in my life.
I really do feel alone though. Like I can't reach out and touch anyone, anything. I feel like I'm in my own place, away from the real world. Sometimes it's where I need to be, but sometimes I just feel like I can't take it, the isolation.
I can't tell myself the truth. I keep trying to convince myself that I am best off alone, with no strings holding me back and no one to let down. But it hurts that I can't talk to anyone. I'm writing on a computer on a website where I'm faceless and anonymous just like anyone else. Chances are that no one will even ever read this.
Just like the rest of my life, this journal is merely an isolated event, cut off and ignored by pretty much everyone.