I'm not really sure why I do it. I let myself get hurt, all the time. Physically and emotionally.
I let people use me, and I let them treat me like shit. After a while of it happening, I just kind of stopped resisting. I don't like it, or know why I do it either. I just do.
Maybe deep down my mind thinks that it's the only way I can get people to like me. I'm not very good at anything I try. As a matter of fact, I suck at just about everything. Most people have at least one strong point, but I really don't. I can't even say that I'm second best or third. Everyone always says that being the best at everything isn't important. But being last in everything sure doesn't help my ego much.

Lately I've been having even more trouble finding a reason to try around here. I really don't care about school anymore, and outside of school I'm pretty apathetic too. I do whatever it takes to get through the week and then Friday night when I go to sleep I don't wake up until at least 13 hours later.
I just don't see any point in doing anything else. And I hate that I can't find any reason to do anything, because I'm wasting so much time doing nothing.
I just want to be out of here. I want to be home, in my own bed, talking to my old friends. I want my life back.